Wish me luck

Well the day has finally arrived.  Tomorrow is my first day at home alone with both of the kids.  So far Keith has either been home with me or Colin has been in daycare so it has been just Tess and me.  Colin officially had his last day of daycare last Friday. 

This is really a bitter sweet time for me.  Of course I am SO happy to have Colin home with me while I am on maternity leave but I do recognize that there were some good things about daycare.  For example

1. He got to play all day 3 days a week with a bunch of other kids his age.
2. He would come home and start talking about a song or book that he read at daycare that Keith and I had not yet introduced him to.
3. Honestly it was nice to have a break from chasing around a very active 2 year old. 

All of that being said though there are some things I will not miss about daycare

1. The horrible guilty feeling in the pit of my stomache when I would drop him off in the morning.
2. Feeling like the workers at daycare weren't really on board with potty training.
3. Shelling out hundreds of dollars a month to have someone else take care of my kid. 

I have said all along that I wanted to be able to spend time at home with my kids.  I have also always acknowledged just how hard I know it will be to stay home all day everyday with two kids.  It is also hard because I don't have many friends who are in this position so I don't have a lot of people to talk to about what I should expect.  A friend posted this article on facebook a couple of days ago and it really speaks to where I am in my life right now. 

Carolyn Hax - TELL ME ABOUT IT ®

www.washingtonpost.com

 

So what exactly am I trying to stay here...  Tomorrow is the first day of what I think will be the most challenging and rewarding 10 weeks of my life.  I get to spend the day with these two cuties, I couldn't be happier.